Tuesday, December 24, 2013

好心寒的聖誕節。。。

終於看到你了,本來很期待也很開心,不過看見你的時候,我便立刻後悔了,我是多麼希望能夠馬上回家。你變得好機車、好討厭、好壞。從你嘴裡出來的話通通一針見血,沒有一句是動聽的,彷彿所講的每句話都像是想表達自己的無情和不在乎。你變得好陌生,你已經完全變成跟從前你最不欣賞的那群人的性格一模一樣,無情、自大、輕浮、討人厭!若一開始你就是這種人,我根本不會把無謂的感情放在你的身上,一定不會!我強顏歡笑,把所有的難過都往肚子裡吞,好可以不讓大家起疑心,你確擺明的把我當透明,忽視我的存在,盡做一些說一些讓我難堪難過的話。雖然沒人聽得懂,但我鐵定聽得明白啊,你這是又何必。非要搞到彼此的局面那麼僵嗎?我覺得真的沒有必要,你把我好不容易累積的勇氣和自我安慰一夜之間全都抹殺了。。。
我沒有想過要從你那得到些什麼,只是想平復自己的心情然後好好的和你變回想以前的關係,只有再當朋友,我才不用失去你,你確把這一切弄得好困難。或許是我一廂情願的珍惜這段友誼或是把自己看得太重要了,你這一陣子所做得一切只證明了你根本不屑我的感受,不屑任何人的感受,在你心裡除了'她'的感受是感受,別人的感覺和感受對你而言都是垃圾!你看都不看的那一份聖誕禮物,是我鼓起多麼多的勇氣才敢放到你面前,你確看也不看的就仍在一邊,連聲謝謝都沒說,這是多大的屈辱和傷害啊。你。。。真的好過份,何必那樣的去傷害一個從來只對你好而不傷害你的女孩。。。
對你我只有失望和絕望,你是真心變成那樣也好,故意改變來讓自己麻木也好,我都不會理了。從前的我認為你一定會一直對我好,別人如何傷害我也一定輪不到你,如今你那樣待我,我無言了,我們之間的友誼和緣份算白費了,今年的聖誕除夕夜變得好冷,都是因為你。。。

Saturday, December 21, 2013

2013年成長回顧篇只《天使與惡魔的差別》

還有10天,今年就圓滿結束了,很快的便要步入2014新的一年了。2013年的我可說是眼淚流盡,有苦說不清,一言難盡。有許多的領悟,有許多的壓力,有許多的不捨,有許多的遺憾更有許多的迷茫失憶,好苦的一年啊!
我曾經是個無憂無慮的女孩,總是人前大聲笑,人后蹦蹦跳的人,總是很樂觀的看待一切, 總相信只要我對人好、人就會對我更好的道理,但這一切在這一年都改變了。雖然跌得遍體鱗傷但卻從中獲得許多寶貴的教訓和領悟。
一起出生入死的人,一起學習,一起無話不談的所謂朋友真的也只不過浪得虛名,不過如此!很多你稱呼他/她為好友的人,真的並非如此的有心善待你。你不會相信人心有多邪惡直到你親身體驗過,這時你才會發現所謂的天使也只不過是惡魔假扮的虛假裝扮,不過往往當時已發現的你早已遍體鱗傷,傷痕累累。
人們都是犯賤的,不見棺材不掉淚,常常對別人給自己的忠告總是忠言逆耳,直到自己摔得滿臉是血才遲遲頓悟,這就是成長啊!
從前的我只要聽見別人在我背後議論我或批評我不屬實的傳聞,我都會抓狂的馬上和他們槓上,質問他們為何這樣做?後來一次次的打擊,一次次的教訓讓我明白小人當前,英雄必死的道理。他們不會因為你的指控或攤牌而停止他們下流的行為,這只會製造機會讓他們變本加厲的數落你,唱衰你和詆毀你。撕破臉之後反而會造成對自己更大的傷害。當你還在為沒了一個朋友而難過的當兒,對方卻是在籌謀下一次如何讓你更難堪更難過!妒忌是小人的特徵之一,他們討厭目光擺在他們視線範圍之外的事物,他們往往沒有肚量去承擔別人比自己優秀的事實,更討厭比他們完美、挑不出毛病的好人,所以他們喜歡選擇用各種邪念和各種方式來擊倒對方,看對方難過受傷害便成了自己虛榮心最大的滿足感!這或許聽起來很變態,但的確是小人們經常會做的事情。*When People Can't Pick On What's Wrong With You, They Will Start To Pick On What's Right With You!!!* 簡單來說就是:"吃飽撐著嫌自己太閒沒事幹,故意製造麻煩!"如今領教類似的偽君子多了,我終於學會如何百毒不侵,左耳進、右耳出的道理。別人的嘴裡不乾不淨我們沒辦法控制但是我們可以選擇如何不去和他們一般見識。你們會發現不理這些下等人的言行舉止會讓自己的日子過得更加多姿多彩些。人生短短幾十年,何必活著讓自己的耳朵受罪,孽待自己珍貴的一顆心。倒不如每天做些有意義的事情讓自己的人生增添意義,命也會比較長一點。好過到了臨死的那一刻才發現你把這一生浪費在不該在乎的人的身上,讓屁話影響了自己一輩子的快樂,一生中都活在惡人的影子底下,那不是太可悲了嗎?
對於那些賤嘴、偽君子、心懷不軌的人,奉勸你們還是管好自己的人生吧,每天把自己人生的二分之一花在踐踏別人的人生和散播別人的謠言真的能讓自己的人生美滿些嗎?難道你們都沒發現自己周圍的朋友越來越少嗎?真正的快樂來自于內心,一個內心不滿足不快樂的人即使得到全世界也只不過是過眼餘煙,總有一天會自食其果,那又何必呢?還是把心思和時間花在如何讓自己的心靈更富裕上吧,你們需要修補自己內心的不滿和邪惡才會得到真正的幸福啊。但若要對此忠告忠言逆耳,我也無所謂,因為到頭來嘴發臭發爛的始終是你們啊,報應還是會上你家敲門啊。。。而我,還是會如往常一樣開開心心的做我自己呀,一點損失也沒有,損失也只不過是你們這幾顆毒蘋果,嚴格來說我還賺到寶貴的人生經驗和精彩的人生旅途故事呢。。。人生要有起起落落才會成長,謝謝你們讓我變得更聰明更堅強也更成熟迷人。。。衷心的感謝你們的毒舌和壞心眼,感謝你們的虛情假意,感謝你們的背叛出賣更感謝你們無知的數落,就因為你們讓我看見這些,我才知道自己是一個多麼高尚有品的人啊。能夠得饒人處且饒人,自己的心原來像鑽石一樣漂亮。感謝你們讓我瞧見我和你們的不同。

Sunday, December 15, 2013

給你想念的問候。。。

最近的你好嗎?聽說你變了好多。人們口中的你讓我覺得好陌生,我彷彿好像根本不曾認識你。。。如今的人生是你想要的嗎?為何不好好振作,不好好愛惜自己?聽完你最近做的事,我從失憶到失落到失望的表情,想掩蓋也掩蓋不住,心也好痛好痛。。。知道失去她等於失去全世界,除了她你也從不在乎任何一個人的感受,這也包括我在內。。。我知道自己什麼都不是所以選擇走出你的世界,可是我並沒有停止關心你,甚至每天偷偷許願,希望你快樂、幸福。但我的願望並沒有實現。。。
想念你的聲音,想念你的笑話,想念你的傲慢,更想念從前的你。。。不過我把這些想念都收起來,存放在自己的心裡。。。我的世界裡多得是你不知道的事。。。

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

沉默的致命伤

女人的沉默是走到尽头的暗示。。。显然的当她还是会吵闹的时候, 表示还有的挽救, 可是当她用沉默来回应所有的一切, 代表着彼此的缘分已走到了尽头。。。
男人的沉默是逃避的暗示。。。显然的当他不知所措的时候, 往往选择用逃避来解决一切。。。即使心中明白这不是最好的方法, 还是会用沉默去回应所有事物, 潜意识认为问题将会随着时间迎刃而解, 竟不晓得这将会是摧毁缘分的慢性毒药。。。
缘分让人若即若离, 能相遇未必能相识, 能相爱未必能相守。。。 没有人能够预测彼此的缘分可以维持多久, 若是能长久, 那会是一生中最美丽的传说, 若是短暂, 那会是一生中美丽的遗憾。。。

Friday, November 8, 2013

高雄有趣的主题餐厅 《18禁不禁》


最近才刚从高雄旅游回来, 高雄和台北相比之下,台北更新奇有趣多了。 可是高雄却也有值得探索的地方,例如: 爱河, 西子湾, 各大夜市比如六合夜市, 凯旋夜市,金钻夜市和瑞风夜市等等, 当然还有另一些旅游圣地也值得去观摩参观。 这次我误打误撞闯进了一间很有趣的主题餐厅, "《18禁不禁》情趣主题餐厅" 位于高雄市苓雅区中山二路446号2楼。 以下便是餐厅的一些介绍:

<3 餐厅门口 <3
<3 餐厅收银柜台 <3
V.I.P 包厢
<3 洗手间外的充气娃娃摆设 <3
<3 厕所门 <3
<3 让人害羞的洗手乳,天啊, 真不知按还是不按 <3
<3 性感的饮料杯子 <3
<3 连摆盘也很特别 <3
<3 劲爆巧克力布丁甜点,是店里特别招待的哦, 真不知从哪吃起 <3
<3 当然少不了这个店里神圣的金山神社, 让人为‘性福’祈福 <3
<3 顽皮的我也来为自己的‘性福’祈祷以下。。。哈哈 <3
<3 此外,店里也挂上了许多有趣的海报, 笑翻了 <3
<3 下次到高雄玩, 不妨去这一间店用餐, 顺便参观参观。<18禁不禁> <3

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

多么痛的领悟, 原来, 我才是我的全部。。。

你们脑海里是否曾几何时出现过这一句话: "为什么又是我, 我到底做错了什么?" 人生不会永远顺风顺水,总有倒霉不如意的时候。 我便是这句话的‘常客’。。。每个人应对挫折的方式都不一样, 而我常常选择大哭, 大闹, 怨天尤人, 泣不成声。。。因为我一直深信这些都是发泄情绪的好办法,总好过老是沉默不语, 一切的怨气都往肚子里吞来得好。我太任性了。。。
后来,一次次的失败和打击终于让我领悟到, 人是可以变坚强的,无须一哭, 二闹,三上吊来表达自己。。。这个世界上唯一值得你难过的只有你自己, 别人的人生不会因为你的一滴眼泪而改变, 这个世界也不会因为你一个人的悲伤而停止转动。可是你本身却会因为自己的难过而颓废, 为了自己的埋怨而感到愤怒, 为自己流的眼泪而感到遗憾不值, 也为自己经历的一切感到不快乐。 当我渐渐发现所有一切负面的打击都落在我一个人身上的时候, 我才顿时间领悟到自己的愚蠢和无知。
我回头一望, 发现大家还是照常过日子, 嘻嘻哈哈的聚在一起, 只有我还在地狱的边端被火烧着, 挣扎着, 就在这一刻, 我觉悟了。
当一切都对自己残忍的时候, 就应该更爱自己, 来补偿自己受的委屈和不甘, 而不是更践踏自己, 让自己显得更可怜更无助。 自己流的眼泪应该自己负责, 不应该期待别人会替你抹掉。。。自己跌倒, 应该自己爬起来, 不应该期待别人来扶你一把。。。我曾经便是有太多的期待所以才会有今天的伤害。
有人曾经对我说:" 你不应该用自己如何对人的标准来要求别人也用同样的标准来对待你!" 当时的我并不明白这句话的涵义, 我常常相信 ‘将心比心’, 只要我对别人好,别人也铁定会对我一样好, 但是我却忽略了 ‘一种米养百种人’ 的道理。。。现在我总算恍然大悟。
不过我始终相信事出必有因,如果这是上天要我学习坚强的方式,那我便虚心受教。。。 ‘坚强’ 两个字固然容易写, 要领悟其中的道理却是需要付出多少的代价啊。。。

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Confessions Of A Pessimist

I always believed that we were all born with a predestination, God has already written a story for each and everyone of us. Our stories were all predestined, the people that is going to come into our life, the things that is going to happen to us, the ups and downs that we are going to face, the places that we will be going and even the number of years that we are going to live for, all these chapters are pre attached to our very own personalized biography at birth. There are no other ways to predict what is gonna happen to us. We can only unravel the truth of our life day by day and as time goes by.
29 Years of my life and I'm still greeted by continuous surprises and ad hoc situations all the time. Some were contributing factors to my smiles while others to my tears. God has definitely planned a rough path for me, drama after drama, obstacles after obstacles, setbacks after setbacks, when will my good time starts to roll? I have seen too much defeatism, too much pessimism and too much of a negative approach and my faith is giving way. How can I regain a new direction in life? How can I smile and be happy again? How can I carry on the battle to my very last breath?

Saturday, October 19, 2013

An Unforgettable Wedding Affair... 18th October 2013

18th October 2013 was a memorable day for my bestie Chinyee and her husband Den. It's one of the coolest wedding ever that I have attended. It was held at The Coastal Settlement, a westernized fusion restaurant and I was the emcee for the night. The ambiance of the place was decorated in a cosy and vintage manner and there were vintage Vespas being displayed all over the place. I was a little nervous as it was my first time being an emcee for a wedding and I was afraid of stuttering. At 4 in the afternoon all the bridesmaids, planner and helpers all started making their way down to the venue to help out for the rehearsal to ensure everything would be done smoothly and the party could start on time. I Love everything about the wedding, from the cute little wedding favors to the vintage Ang Pao box to the Polaroid snapshot moments to the interior decor of the whole place and not forgetting the delicious food and the lovely wedding music surrounding the whole place contributed from the live band of the night by GC Live's Feng & Erick, this wedding is just very different from the traditional wedding banquet and I believed all the guests totally had a blast for the night. Here are some snapshots from the wedding last night...
Me & Medina 's Look For E Big Party
E Beautiful Area To Leave Your Footprints At This Wedding
Lovely Little Gifts Of Appreciation For Attendance 

E Vintage Letterbox For Guests To Post Their Gifts Of Token For E Newly-Wed
E Handsome Bridegroom & E Gorgerous Bride
E Magic Finger---> Makeup Artist Jeffrey Linus Lee
All E Gorgerous Guests Of E Night
E Most Sexy Guest Award... Look @ How Helpless E Groom Is?! LOL
E Beautiful Couple On Their Vespa Ride
Not To Forget A Snapshot With E Cute Keyboardist On E Gorgerous Vintage Vespa
Batchie Love

The Latecomer... LOL

From the pictures, you can roughly tell we had a good time last night! Indeed it was a lovely evening but a pity no one got wasted last night, everyone managed to walk out of the restaurant in a straight line. Boo! No matter what this wedding certainly has played a big part in one of the chapters of my life containing the most beautiful memories ever. I wish them eternal love and a blissful marriage... Hugs Bestie...


Saturday, October 12, 2013

小时代



当青春变成旧照片, 当旧照片变成回忆, 当我们终于站在分叉的路口。。。
孤独, 失望, 彷徨,残忍。。。
上帝打开了那扇, 叫做成长的大门。。。

Thursday, October 3, 2013

(M)issing (I)n (A)ction

Recently while I was surfing the net, I happened to stomp upon reports of missing people over these few years. Some were certified dead after a few years whereas some were never found. It's very sad to be reading all these articles but at the same time felt curious on those whose bodies were never found. Are they dead or just went into hiding. If they are hiding still, how and why did they do that? 
Life is getting more and more stressful nowadays and that does not only concerned monetary issues, but family, educational and love issues as well. Frankly speaking standard of living is getting higher everywhere especially in Singapore, the bills are increasing but not our salaries, what we earn is barely enough to cover our daily expenses. The rich gets richer while the poor gets poorer. On top of all these, we still need to face the risk of retrenchment, politics and layoff issues. No wonder I have started to detect spots of grey hairs on the reflection of my mirror. 
Sometimes I do have a strong urge to perform the disappearing act but I just can't leave my beloved parents behind. They are old and their health is deteriorating as the year goes by. They relied very much on me for their daily life and I feel that it is always a child's responsibility to take care of their parents. When you were a baby, they did not abandoned you no matter how stressed up they were so all the more we don't have a reason to leave them behind when they are old. I love my parents and I want them to live happily ever after till they pass on, it's the least I can do for them.
My life is dramatic and stressful, there are so many things and emotions I need to handle everyday. Frankly speaking it's pretty tiring for me that's why travelling became a way for me to get away from my actual life for a while and just be myself. It's my way of relieving one's stress as well. I have tons of friends but when I wanted to find someone to talk to, I could not think of anyone. Everybody has their own life, tied up with their own problems and difficulties and even if they are willing to listen, it doesn't mean that they are really interested and will digest every single word you say. Many times you may realized after you plucked up your greatest courage to share all your stories, you might not necessary get a solution to all your problems as well. Some might not even be listening at the end of the day. So best is to keep quiet. Chin up And Deal With It!!! Sad To Say But This Is Life, No Matter How Sad You Are, Sometimes You Still Have To Put Up A Smile In Front Of Everyone And Get On With Your Life!!!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

超級偶像8 楊涵琁 - 追



Another contestant that caught my eyes. She has the warmth of a naturally charismatic person especially when she is dealing with emotional love songs. She can be both a good looking man and as well as a passionate woman. 帅惨了!!!

超級偶像8 陳詩妤 - 荒唐



She is one of my favorite in 超級偶像8. Totally impressed with the way she sing... Can't believe she is only 15!

Monday, September 30, 2013

SHOUTOUT: If a problem can be solved, there is nothing to worry about... If it can't be solved, then worrying is useless...

Seriously, I'm super determined to start blogging all over again. My thoughts and feelings were all over the place and I guessed writing a blog will help to vent it all out. 2013- The final year to my last leg of twenties and it's now already end of September, time is definitely moving fast and I'm soon gonna hit the BIG,FAT THREE!!! It's a very complicated and tiring year for me. I've visited new places, met new people, gotten myself into trouble with politics, got lost in life, lose hope and faith, regained trust and confidence and tasted poverty. It's like I've been through the scariest roller coaster ride ever, challenging yet memorable. Every ride in life is worth remembering for, it tends to inspire you to think differently each time you finish a ride. Everyone's life is just like a roller coaster ride. We all have our ups and downs. no matter what happens, life goes on eventually. I just hope that the remaining quarter of 2013 would be a good and memorable one with all my issues in all aspects solved.

Monday, May 20, 2013

那个爱照相的女孩。。。

在朋友眼中,我永远都是一个爱照相的女生。。。大家都忙着取笑我,每次我拿起照相机,大家总会说: "不会吧,你又要拍照哦?! " 我只会对着大家撒娇,"来嘛! 就一张。。。" 其实大家都不了解,我常常认为生命很脆弱,人死了,能留着的就只剩回忆, 而记载回忆最好的方法就是把最美好的时刻拍下来,记载着去过的地方,遇见过的人,走过的路和经历过的事。。。有一天即使我不在了,我的故事也可以流传下去,让大家都记得曾几何时有过一位这样的女孩活在这个世界上。有一天即使我不在这个世界上了,想念我的亲人和好友能够看得见我,让大家记住最开心,最温馨的时刻。。。有一天能够唤起伤害过我,爱过我,疼爱过,珍惜过我甚至是讨厌过我的人的回忆。。。让大家能够唤起良心里的那篇记忆。。。美貌不会永远跟随我们,当有一天我们老去的时候,让这些照片允许我们记起曾有过的一切,让小孩能够看看自己妈妈年轻时的模样,让老公记起当年让他爱上的那位女孩的容颜,让自己的人生画下美满的句号。。。所以各位就请包容我的任性,陪我照照相吧。。。我答应你们那些照片将会是你们人生中最漂亮的回忆。。。:)